Am I worthless

I sat there quietly and watched as they zoomed in and out of my red Bee Balm and purple Echinacea. They were moving at such a high rate of speed that only the fast click of my shutter was able to slow them down. I always hear them before I actually see them; the constant beating of wings making that low humming sound is a sound that never fails to envelope me in a strange and peaceful tranquility.

This past week of dry weather has given me the opportunity to sit in my flower garden and view my beloved hummingbirds. As I sat there each evening watching one hummingbird after another visit the feeders, I marveled at how tiny they were. I couldn’t help but wonder about each tiny bird, and ponder the purpose of their existence. Why would God make a creature that spends its entire day having to search for food?
(*Due to the amount of energy they release, each one must eat approximately every ten minutes, or face the risk of starvation.)

Their seemingly insignificance shouldn’t weigh so heavily on me, but it makes me think of my own significance, one that has a tendency to overwhelm me; sometimes I feel like a tiny splinter living among a forest of giant timbers.

Listen to His truth

My biggest battle has always come from my mind. I encounter days where I really have to focus to tune out the negative thoughts, to listen to my Savior’s voice instead my own.

I hear, “You are worthless.” He says, “Every hair on your head has been counted, and you are worth more than all the sparrows on earth.” Luke 12:7

I hear, “You can’t do anything right.” He says “Grab hold of my hand and I will give you the strength to do anything you want through me.” Philippians 4:13

I hear, “You are weak.” He says, “Put your hope in Me and I’ll make you strong and courageous, for I am with you in all that you do.” Psalm 31:24, Joshua 1:9

I hear, “You are not smart enough.” He says, “All you have to do is ask and I’ll generously give you all that you need without criticism.” James 1:5

I hear, “You are losing your mind.” He says, “Let my peace wash over you like rain. My peace may be hard for you to understand, but it is strong enough to keep watch over your heart and mind.” Philippians 4:7-8

Listen to His truth
No matter what we think about ourselves, there is a higher power who holds the real truth in the palms of His hands. He tells us that once we “hear His truth, once we really understand and believe what His truth means, we will be set free.” (John 8:32)

I want that so much for my life. I want to be set free from all that my mind bombards me with. I’m trying really hard to grasp an understanding, to see and believe that my negative thoughts pale in comparison to His truth.
For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.” Ephesians 2:10 NLT

Absolutely nothing God has ever, or will ever create is insignificant. He always has a purpose, a reason for making it, and that especially rings true in our lives. His reasoning may never be fully clear to us; we may always marvel at why He made so many beautiful creatures like the hummingbird. Maybe the answer is simply to allow us a glimpse of and appreciation of His unending beauty. Whatever the case, we can rest assured He has a plan for it and we can be certain it is significant in His eyes.

 

Listen to His truth

Pray with me:

O heavenly Father, the mere mention of Your name makes me feel so very unworthy. I come before Your presence humbled to know that Your greatest desire for me is that I will not only see the truth about myself, but live the truth as one who has been set free.

Lord, that is my desire too, but I allow so many obstacles to block my path to freedom. I’m just now beginning to see that although we are mere specks of dust compared to Your glory, we should never allow ourselves to sink into the pit of lies the enemy puts before us.

I want to saturate my life with Your truth and know that no matter what I think of myself, no matter what the world thinks of me, that Your Truth is all that really matters. I want to answer the question “Am I worthless?” with a resounding no. I thank You for this truth and for covering me in Your grace and love.

For as always, it’s in Your name I pray, Amen

Salina

Photos © Salina T Gibson

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*The amount of food eaten by hummingbirds corresponds to the amount of energy used. For example if they have access to a higher sugar concentration (more calories), they will eat less frequently. By the end of the day they are able to store enough energy to sleep through the night. This is why feeders are so important because they give them the extra energy they need. Please remember to clean your feeders often, and always keep them full.

Hummingbird info adapted from http://www.hummingbirds.net

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